There I was sitting in front of my laptop, googling for ‘Songs released in 1995’ as part of a writing assignment. The point of the assignment was to listen to a song that was released in the year you were 13 years old and then to write down about the memories that were triggered by it.
To be honest, I don’t remember much of my 13th year or for that matter even my 11th and 12th years. Every time I think of those years I just remember feeling the loneliest I have ever felt in my life. No dreams, nothing to live for, the darkest years of my life. I was a bit cynical to begin with. I mean I know songs have been very important in my life but how can they bring back memories. How can they when I don’t even remember what songs I listened to back then. I could give a list of songs I listened to after the age of 14 but 13?!
I was surprised to find so many songs Mercy by Diana King, Be My Lover by La Bouche, Cotton Eye Joe by Rednex, Scatman, You Are Not Alone (the irony!!) by Michael Jackson, Akele Hum AKele Tum, Rangeela, Karan Arjun, DDLJ and so many more, which have stayed with me over the years. But my biggest surprise was to find the movie Bombay was released in 1995.
Directed by Mani Ratnam, “Bombay” a Tamil movie also released in Hindi was a movie about a Hindu man marrying a Muslim woman and the difficulties they face during the Hindu-Muslim riots of 1992 which happened in Bombay (Mumbai now). The music composed by A.R.Rehman had topped the charts back then and are being remixed even today.
Even though I had the cassettes of both the Hindi and Tamil versions of the songs, I was more familiar with the Tamil version. However the most powerful song in that movie and probably in my life was the one with no lyrics.
The Theme song of the movie – ‘Bombay Theme’, has been this song which meant so much to me over the years and that it was from that period of my life, took me by surprise. While some songs make you cry and some dance, this song stirs a lot of conflicting emotions in me. Sometimes it’s soothing and relaxing almost like a lullaby. At other times it makes me feel really sad and inevitably makes me cry.
I don’t know if the song reminds me of my aunt with whom I had gone to see the movie and is no more. Or perhaps seeing the city that I spent my childhood in, one I associated with my innocent days was tarnished with such brutal violence, paralleled to my own struggles at that point.
I remember wishing in those days that my parents had never shifted out of Bombay (Mumbai). Wishing desparately to go back to the time I last remembered feeling free and happy. Return to the place I was born and spent the first 6 years of my life. Return to my inocence.
This movie had taken away that happy go to place from me. Mumbai was not the same anymore. It too had to struggle with internal conflicts much like me. At some level this movie has had a much bigger impact on me than I have realised. Perhaps I somewhere began to realise that things weren’t hunky dory back in Mumbai as well. There were great days and there were bad days.
I still don’t remember much, but I remember that things started to look up from my 14th year. Playing volleyball for my school, hanging out with friends… I had stopped feeling sorry for myself, stopped feeling like a victim of destiny and started to push myself to be more in the present.
While Depression and anxiety have been my constant companions over the years, so have such songs and movies which continue to inspire and soothe me over the years. For every phase of my life I have had songs that defined that period and now I have one for a time in my life that’s still a bit vague to me. Somewhere it’s helped me to connect the missing dot of that time in my life.
Even though A.R.Rehman has gone on to win some prestigious awards nationally and internationally including the Grammys and the Oscars, to date I believe that this was his best work.
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Loved how you wrote about songs and the way each stirred a different emotion, a different memory in you. 🙂 Looks like the writing assignment wasn’t so bad at all, ha? 🙂
What a great assignment, to search a song and see what it reminds you of. To be honest, I have no idea either what I was doing when I was 13. Maybe playing volleyball at the sports court in the valley, or maybe discovering the internet, maybe writing a lot too…
I will have to check this out, I have never heard of it.. I know sometimes I hear a song or something though and it really takes me back to my childhood.
Music is great for healing! You made me smile by mentioning these songs “Be My Lover by La Bouche, Cotton Eye Joe by Rednex,” reminds me of when I used to get my dancing shoes out and boogie … turning back time to my younger years!
Music has helped me a lot. I know there are songs that I can listen to if I’m upset, and I feel better afterwards. I’ll have to listen to the song you mentioned.
A R Rahman my favourite too, what a choice of audio, brought back my memories too. Well thought and pen down story. 👏
I will be checking this out, music always has a way to help us out one way or another.
I’ve always associate with classical music when I look back my childhood. It helps me sooth and calms me whenever I go through harsh times.
Music always helps me when I am struggling as well. Sometimes it helps to sing and dance it out!
Music has been a great help to me over the years. All I need to do is pop some music on and I can dance the worries away 🙂
As a creative I always love to get inspired through other art forms and I also reach out for songs to help me get into deep thoughts and in touch with my feelings. Thanks for a great post!
It seems like the assignment triggered so many memories for you – both happy and sad. I guess music can do that.
Thanks for introducing me to the Bombay Theme. A great piece of music indeed.
First of all, you’re great writer. Second of all it not always good to look backwards but sometimes those memories can give us clues to why we act the way we do, today in the present moment
Thanks a lot! True
Like you I cannot remember songs that were released when I was 13. What I remember of high school is disliking English Literature with Romeo and Juliet. Haha! Funny times.
It’s amazing how a song, lyric or music can bring back so many memories. It’s sounds like a very interesting project
music and food are great memory triggers … so I can understand the assignment. I’m glad you found some memories as you worked through it, instead of the nothing you expected.
I’m afraid I didn’t recognize the songs you listed … but then in 1995 I was much older than 13 and at a whole different phase in life … so music was mostly a background thing…
This is a great writing assignment. I acutally went ahead and googled for Songs released in 2001. I couldn’t remember much memories from the songs but I do know that during that time is when I moved from California to the Philippines.
Nice! You got to reminisce. I am not sure if I want to reminisce about my past though. So many painful memories and awkward moments. I am happy where I am now.
Old songs old perfumes and old music is known to bring back memories. I have been through this nostalgia so many times and it is always good to hit the rewind button once in a while.
I really appreciate song writers and singers who know how to bring out a song with such great lyrics and messages to the point of soothing one when unstable. And just like you, I also have songs that mark some memories in my life.
Awww 🥰 & I’m so sorry for your aunts loss. It’s so hard when we are reminded of someone and something we dearly cherished.
Music has always been my escape. Somehow, I think music as a soundtrack for the movie that is my life ahah! or when i listen to music, i imagine great stories that allow me to be creative
Going to watch Bombay already.
Cute baby picture😍
👍 thanks 😊
You write so well and I can relate that I have a song for every special moment (sad or happy) in my life!
I just nominated you for Sunshine Blogger Award. This is the post:
Thanks a lot!!