There are two sides of me, much like my doppelganger. The confident, driven, optimistic side and the nervous, introverted, shy and anxious side. There are very few people who get to see my both sides and even fewer who recognize it. Its annoying sometimes when people say “oh you wont understand my struggles”… I am just left there smiling to myself saying REALLY!! I wrote this poem a few years ago at I point when I was feeling really frustrated with someone close.
Everyone thinks I was born this way,
Confident and looking forward for the next day.
Self doubts, self loathing, self pity and shame,
All these and more spelt my name.
I was born more perfect than I am today,
Somewhere along I lost my way,
Had to earn everything from my name to a smile,
A stitch at a time, trying not to crumble into a pile.
Yet you think its come to me easy,
Even though every decision has made me feel queasy.
I just wish you would understand what I feel,
Do you want me to fail to believe its real,
And even if I do you will see it as my weakness and not my strength,
Even if I tell you what I have gone through in length.